Speak in actions rather than in words

I don't understand some people. Oftentimes, the people that I hate the most are the ones who talk about the things they don't really do. These are the people who don't really walk the talk.

Yes, I'm sure you have encountered 'em. You might have seen their posts online and heard them talk "passionately" about something (which I don't see they do). I don't know if it's just me, or whenever they talk about these things my mind often wanders off and recall if they really did it (it automatically does that especially if I know this person, personally - hey that doesn't sound right).

I guess, this just reflects how much I know this person (whoever they - yes, THEY - are). I don't see the point of preaching if you yourself could not do it. How will I ever believe you? 

I know that somehow, deep inside you, you want to do these things you preach because I know it'll make you a better person. You strive for self-improvement. You want to make the whole world a better place by being a better you. But then, I know, the thing that will hold you back is by being this now you. 

I will always pray for you (yes, the whole lot of you preachers-who-do-no-walk-people), that you realize this. Nothing will hold you back once you realize that there is a certain person (hello, me) who does not believe whatever you are saying. I will pray that you still go the same path as what you are saying. I know it will make you happier and better. I pray that you make baby steps to it and finally do it. 

And now, I pray to God that I do not encounter any word of mouth that comes from you. I don't want to have negative thoughts about anyone, this is something I have been practicing (though I usually fail haha). I pray that I see it and admire not words but your actions. 

After all, actions speak louder than words ain't it? 

What happened?

Is it just me or the year went by so fast? I mean REALLY fast! Oh well, I even forgot how to blog because I have been tired all the time making a day work for me. Anyway, so what has been happening?

Well, first, I ran that marathon. And I did not get anything, but I felt prouder of myself. I can finish marathons now, and I feel a lot cooler hahaha. 

Second, I've been busy as ever. With mu new boss, I have been jampacked with work. Never-ending-work that is, mind you, but it's okay. I feel more accomplished this year. What is bad though, I don't feel any growth. I want to do something different. There is an ongoing merger and I am awaiting the pay so that I can finally go.

Third, commute got the worst of me. Manila commute just got worst, and I could not take it anymore. My normal two hr commute (one way) is now more than 3 hrs. I feel degraded everytime I try to ride the mrt. I feel I don't deserve such treatment, why do I have to fall in line for more than an hr just to stand up inside the train and ride it for 30mins. Government has to do something about this, we are paying taxes. And we don't deserve such treatment. Hayy.. Well that's another story hehe. Let's be positive here. So, this year, I am trying to live alone near the office. It sucks really. I want to sleep with my dog. But, my sleep is sacrificed and it's not healthy. Thus, this decision, I hope I can save more money though. Oh well, let's see.

Fourth, well, I bought a new camera. And requests have been booming as ever! I love it! I thank the Lord for the opportunities. 

Fifth, I guess I have been more okay with myself. The heavy feeling is almost gone. I don't feel sad on friday nights, I don't feel like crying anywhere. Now, I got used to being alone. I feel detached but more forward looking. I want things for myself now. And I want to get them.

So these are the things that are currently happening, I do hope more good things come before the year ends. Cross fingers to that!